I feel like a bad mom...

So the other day My husband called and said we were getting a puppy, and I was really happy. We went to a place in our local mall and got this cute 12 week old Cocker Spaniel! One of the most beautiful puppies I've seen. But things have been happening. Like before we even got her she jumped out of my arms at a toy and fell and my husband snapped at me and it made me feel so horrible about myself I cried. So he didn't let me hold her. We went to PetSmart to get some food and bed. and he wouldn't let me hold her and of course he is in his NWU's (Navy Work Uniform) and all the girls were freaking out over how cute the puppy was. But If I would have been holding our puppy looking for a dog bed I wouldn't have every girl in the store looking at me like a piece of meat. But you know I got over that. He married me because he loves me.
We are starting to potty train her and it's like it's my fault every time she goes potty in the house, like I can't have my eye on her all the time while I'm trying to do dishes. But he plays with her and she can't do nothing wrong. and now I get so much less loving. Not that I'm not angry he loves our dog it makes me happy that he loves our puppy and that she fits in to our family.
than today we gave her a bath, and I dropped the towel in the bath. It was annoying that all he said was "way to go mommy". It was just annoying, Like why is that your choice of words when there is so many other things that are nicer to say! Sometimes I just wish he wouldn't make it all my fault that it would like it was when he came home. Team work, and working as one. But I could just be a moody girl. because I am PMSing

3 Types of Sex...

For me I believe there is a three types of sex, Fucking, Sex, than Making Love.

Fucking
Fucking is what happens when there is nothing better to do. It's meaning less sex, where no feelings are shared. Most of the time it's what happens in porn, a guy just pounding you or a girl bouncing on top of a guy. most of the time it's a one night stand or just banging a guy after meeting him at the bar.

Sex
Is where you get something out of it. May be pleasure, Or just having a fun time with the person you're with. Mostly everyone has sex like this. This happens during relationships, and during friends with benefits.

Making Love
This is the level of sex where you have a connection with someone and your bodies really become ONE. It's basically the part of being married. This level of sex you feel complete with the person you are with.

I know this wasn't that long. But it's something that I've been think about lot lately being married every time we have sex it's always one of these. I wondered in the beginning what changed but I just had to change the way I look at what I'm dealing with.
-Stephanie <3

Why I'm starting this blog...

I started a blog awhile ago and it helped me deal with what I had going on in my life. So I'm starting it again.
My life goes a little something like this, I don't enjoy my past it's embarrassing, I went to college and I failed out, while failing out of college I ran away and married the love of my life.
My husband is in the navy and I've never been happier. But just like every other human out there I have issues and problems that I'm just looking for away to deal with them. I hope you enjoy things I have to say or just enjoy a point on view.
-Stephanie <3